Am I happy?

My net-worth is -$35,000 (-₹25,00,000). That's a negative. I owe that sum.

I don't own a house. I don't own a car. I've never had a credit card. I've mostly traveled sleeper class on trains. I own an iPhone 11 that was a gift. I have a Macbook, my first laptop I bought two years ago. I am 34, unmarried and not on my way to become a father. I don't have the down payment ready for a big purchase. This is my first ever blog post. I'm not 'successful' in the conventional sense whatsoever.

Sometimes I waste time over things that don't matter... and then some, over things that really do.

I overthink a lot. I don't read enough books. Books. I probably read three in 2020, didn't finish any. I held onto some relationships that had turned toxic, for years. Some for decades. I don't give myself a break. I'm scathing in my insults to my most beloved people. I constantly look back with regret. I rarely judge people and their choices, I don't extend the same courtesy to myself.  

But I digress. Am I happy?– Mostly, yes.